Trap

Trapped in the
Tired cause I stayed
Tied cause I left,
Left in a rush with
It, Left you in the
Hush of it.
Got caught up in the
Lust of it,
Wanted a new rust
On this.
Shaved it off by
Time, with the mine,
All my belongings on the
Optimal,
On the
Bottom oval.
I was after the white.
No house.
Politics of the
Modest mouse..
Were we ready,
Or just present?
Were we better,
Or just the only one’s?
Going back is for this.
But life is forward
And so is green.
So is mean and lean.
New Sabotage
Or new garage?
New way of living.
That old house wasn’t giving.
I am not sure what it all means..
But I take pride in getting there.
I take a lot of Joy and pride in the process,
And the journey.
But these capital letters
They are faded,
Cause meaning has become
Jaded.
Is church the next topic?
The next baby carrot?
To chase,
To circle,
To black without white
To home without house?
Isn’t it the same party
No matter who you are with?
Or this just all in my head?
Cause it was funny for a little bit,
Then, you were like..I am gonna stay
Here for a little while..
I thought I could get some extra from
You, thought I could go those miles for
You, thought this white had a house,
Had a mouse, had some corners,
Or is this your trap, and
Your fade back?

Atmosphere

Atmosphere rearrange,

Music so strange,

Life is full of bigger screens,

But I’m chasing the unseen,

Finishing you off I could never 

Do, 

Causing you to make the que,

Easier to never let go,

Cause I still got my head phones on,

And this love for the eschaton,

It never really went away,

But so do those sad days.

I wanted a brighter future,

Better furniture,

Why was that a mess?

Why did you call it like that?

WordPress just makes it one long

Thought,

So this night is hot,

Burning me up Inside,

I thought I could hide,

I thought I could be the lied

To one.

I was just and then I was like 

You bought me tech, and 

The trek will be long,

I wanted this night to last 

Long,

Now you tell me it’s the atmosphere,

It’s the fading October air,

Cause it’s burden up in here.

I was lying ,

I wasnt telling the truth 

She still needs the one claiming 

This suit..

Now this night has me under ,

Cause Sunday will cause me 

Some thunder,

All those rules I’ve been breaking 

All the reasons I’ve been acting ,

It’s from running and getting high

Off of you ,

Cause I knew you were a bad memory

And I really knew it too.

I tried to get you to follow me ,

60 days of chaos,

Where I saw the dross,

Held the candle with it,

Knew the only sure seal 

Is the best kind of steal,

I’m not making it,

I’m just making it,

This style no one taught me.

I’m still that kid from 4th Street.

I’m still the one turning orange just 

To find you ,

Just to figure out that none of this 

Night will be remembered,

Your body though,

I got a lot of time to shred 

That memory too.

Atmosphere is here ,

So is this humid air.

Late for ya..

Keep time on me,

That song was free. 

Now I need more sleep,

But I got a heap.

Past lies, regrets,

And you, you are the last

One, the last song,

The last eyes I set myself on.

You are lovely, still will be,

Still got to, got to,

Keep time on me.

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Thanks Clint for the picture. This was one of those..hey, need your picture real fast. This is the life I have been living and it has been nothing short of amazing. 2007 was when this blog started and you have been on this adventure with me. From Kansas City to California, back to Kansas City and now the last 5 years of living in L.A. A picture speaks for itself. #blessed.

Monday

Real time thoughts. If you have been following or just started. I have been behind on my own creative dreams. 60 Days of poetry was( and is) in real time too. This is now( which is past the 60 days) This is today, and today is all we have.

I got the news,

The news of today.

I got to many hangups with

Yesterday.

I chose and did,

Wrong and long.

How did you hike it,

Did you alone?

Its hard to embrace the present, but that is the only way to move forward.

Embracing where you are.

Now that the day is ended,

And I have surrendered.

What will I lay down?

What will I paint this town?

Red, for victory?

Cause blood is all that matters.

Green, for inexperience,

Or for go, or for fast,

Or do I have what will last?

I ran fast. I did sweat.

I am listless now

 Over making lists.

Try 6:33,

Try it on.

A yoke that is easy,

What kind of scandal is that?

A life that costs nothing doesn’t

Seem worthy of living.

But now meaning comes from

The lack.

Cause I am not getting this time

Back.

Supergirl, Season 3

What kind of fight can there

Be?

The Flash is faster,

But so thin is this

Alabaster.

Am I really giving it my all?

Or am I caught up in the fall?

I mean, October 2007,

That was no open heaven.

Those doors were shut,

That mask was in the rut.

I put it off and put it on,

But I could not escape

That eschaton.

Those wrath filled prayers,

And those God awful blue chairs.

I was there, and you weren’t,

So you can’t write about it like

It is easy to understand.

I am the one living with me,

And sometimes I don’t like

What I see.

I mean, not with looks, or

Even with weight, or even

With the gold on the plate.

No, money hasn’t found me,

Neither has fame,

But when I drive I still

See L.A.

I mean, I see it.

So, this is Monday

But so is everyday.

A new beginning for

The winning.

Cause I got a chance to take,

And that is no mistake.

I got today, and that’s

All I can say.