Forgetting to remember 

How to surrender,

Counting til November 

When life is older,

Wanna go further 

But I can’t stay sober.

Falling asleep to 

Falling in my dreams.

Trying to find you in the 

Wind, 

Forgot what its like

To win.

Everything keeps blowing

As everyone keeps going,

Can’t let anyone know,

That you want to be

Known.

Older but still afraid.

This bed is never made,

Lost in the shade,

Underneath your 

Wrath,

Can’t get past the
Past.

Bloodstains close

To the floor,

Notes about

Departure 

Close to the 

Door.

I’ve gotten you

All wrong,

No one here

Wants to

Last long.

You had nothing to offer

But money to offer 

As an offering,

We always showed

Up but we never

Learned how to 

Grow up.

The pulpit is the culprit

And anything you say

Goes.

You wanna know what my 

Heart is about,

But inside it is a 

Drought.

I am listless over

Making lists

About the changes

You never made.

I used to have fire 

Way back then,

Now we keep going 

Back to those days 

Called then,

You don’t want

Those good times 

To end but

All your friends

Have friends

And being alone

Never ends.

I can’t let it go 

All those things you 

Did in the snow.

Love wasn’t felt,

The water would 

Melt,

Is your name a

River,

Cause you are the 

Giver,

And no one here

Knows Your 

Future.

Calling it out,

All the times

We doubt,

Heart is a little

Broken,

And that is

Certain.

Used to have fire,

Now we get coffee

And talk about

Desire.

You moved away,

But you never

Got away from

All the thoughts

I think about you,

We let you stay 

Around for free,

But your anger

Was a tragedy.

Still talking like a kid,

All those things you 

Said but never did.

Still losing the thrills

Cause I keep taking

Your pills,

Will try to remember

What it will be like

To surrender,

This land is your 

Land.

I know about love

But I forget about
Mercy.

If I forget the past,

I trust You will 

Make this life last.