We write our New Year’s resolutions but we had them all along. Each year is progress…
This isn’t a new year without Your
I am not certain I have built something
You would like.
I am not certain these thoughts have been
All about You.
I am certain that the years past have not
Been all about You.
If I was to lock it in
Like one would do at a wedding,
I would have to say I can’t, not today, not now.
All this commitment floating around me,
All this free wedding photography.
Yes, I too, have captured your moments for you.
I, too, said I would and I said I would do it for free.
I am not certain I would do that again,
Film and shoot and shout it out,
Tell your story, and do it for free?
I am not certain I am ready for free,
Or even ready to charge you a fee.
I am only certain I want to something
Something of a wed, on a Wednesday,
These are uncertain thoughts.
Taking hits and giving in..
Thought I needed it..
Device for the devices,
Can’t see the scar that fades away..
And your head too,
And that tea a little soft too,
Lost, and you dig,
Where is often,
Is it daily?
Is it now,
Is it a minor concussion,
From all the hits.
July 27, 2018
Days turned to night with you,
Embarrassed a little with you,
Or maybe because of you,
Stretching Thursdays into Fridays,
Watching night fall,
Bitter ending trails to form from
This new kind of norm,
Escaping from the ache,
Moving towards the mistake,
Taking it in the gut,
Sick, in the rut,
For the secrets keep you stuck.
Passing nights with you,
Falling in circles,
Spinning a little bit too,
Asking for fixing,
Looking for wrenches,
Lost in the trenches.
Thought I’d be the one to share this with you,
This night has never been blue,
It’s always been dark and black,
And it feels like I’m on the attack,
If this is nothing but the truth then that’s good enough,
Cuz at least it’s better than hiding,
And we all know how good you are at that,
If there’s something to say and to speak,
I hope it comes out of a place of need.
It took two to get here,
Two stories to tell,
Two crimes to commit.
Yeah in the end I feel it’s just one,
One More Night,
One more crime,
One last time,
Is never the end of this ride.
Everyone has got to have a reason,
To make that movie again,
To get to filming,
To get to remembering..
I can’t lock this away anymore,
And pretend like you don’t hear me at
I think I have to stay,
But it’s because I want to.
I think you have two more friends,
And two more places you can still go,
I think you have 2 sins you hate,
And two directions you can go,
I know this night had to be fast,
Trying to find you,
Trying to stay a little bit longer,
But the two hardest things in life,
Is everything that has to do with making
So leave this place,
But don’t try to pretend and stay,
And if you try to run away,
I hope you have two more reasons,
Why that place was never good enough,
And, while you’re on the run..
There’s two more times,
For two more crimes,
They are fear and regret,
And I think more than twice
They will try to come back again,
But this is where I need you,
To be the better friend.