Fallout Review

No not another gamer review! Ha ha Fallout 4 is way outdated coming from someone who makes fun of gamers. You know me on here. I like and love films.

Mission Impossible Review. I did attempt a review at Ghost Protocol back in 2011 when I was taking more time to try to write movie reviews. I still do. Just not on here. Ha ha.

It is a Saturday morning. I am peacefully trying out new places of coffee in La Verne( My home). When I am here. I love it. I was traveling all week * like most weeks.

And here I come home. Here’s the real review from the latest of those critics:

” When Fallout begins, Ethan is on his own in Belfast, brought back into the IMF fold when he learns that his still-living nemesis Solomon Lane (Sean Harris) has influenced a group of disavowed agents known as the Apostles to try and wreak anarchy upon the world by detonating a trio of nuclear weapons. Ethan then works with his IMF cohorts along with the enigmatic MI6 agent Ilsa Faust (Rebecca Ferguson) and a mysterious CIA agent named August Walker (Henry Cavill) to stop the Apostles at all costs. The plot, as is often the case in Mission: Impossible movies, isn’t intricately detailed because it doesn’t need to be; instead, it partially functions as a clothesline on which to hang an impressive amount of jaw-dropping, relentless action sequences..”(Find this at https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/heat-vision/mission-impossible-fallout-is-dark-knight-series-1130069)

I feel like I had this thought at least a decade ago..and since then it has been developing. One man cannot change the world. One conversation with one very influential person in my life( at the moment of talking about movies). This person made a connection between the film Chinatown( 1974) and how in that film( and in that era) the one man army didn’t work. One man( J.J. Gittes) can’t change the corrupt system of Los Angeles politics…

But now films have evolved with the hero being the only hero in the midst of the complexities that follow with working with others, or in most cases, being notorious for not working with anyone. Jason Bourne and Jack Bauer being my two favorite references to one man leaving Chinatown behind and taking down the system by themselves.

Mission Impossible is one franchise that has gotten better and better with each new installment. I still like wearing my to tight muscle shirts to be Vin Diesal in Fast and Furious but nothing compares to all that these Mission Impossible films bring.

My review of this film is no review in the way you would read a breakdown…it is just to much fun and to well done not to see.


Are these movies closer to real life events possibly taking place? Do we feel like impossible is trite or hackneyed, just like the other words you are sick of hearing?

Ilsa shows up in Paris and says, ” You must be new.” She says this in response to August Walker’s, ” Hope is not a strategy.”

I think we don’t have to understand the dynamics of the government doing crazy things to keep us safe. We all know we don’t get it all and in other genres of this ” hero” saving the world those lines are beyond blurred because the greater good is the mission( no matter the cost).

I appreciate that we will never know for sure and that this is just a movie. But for me I have never viewed movies as always a waste of space..or a waste of time..or solely for the reason of getting my stress out. I never walk away without taking notes. It drives me crazy too because If I blogged it all you would hear a lot. I love stories.

Go see this movie..


Memory Wars

Inspired by my last week of being 29. November 13th is coming soon to a theater near you. As a child my parent’s would ask me, “Where is that movie playing?” I would say, “in theaters everywhere.” Switchfoot songs and especially their last album Fading West has been a source of inspiration. Here’s to the memories we have..good, bad and eternal.

Remembering to often

Waiting for the coffin,

Another nail for the unseen


Remembering those words You

Spoke way back when

That red couch was my best friend—

Anger for the stranger, anger before

The manger now I am the manager

Of my own destiny,

Now I am forgetting the nails, the side

Splitting of Your body, a doubting Thomas,

A doubting spill of the dross,

I empty the burnt things,

The new signet rings,

The sealed love of the greatest

Song to sing, one more week before

The twenties end,

One more 30 years to get it right,

To live with waste is as good as

Haste, for I cannot move forward alone—

All or nothing at all is the song I sing,

Slipping away past the memories that

Haunt me, everyone has a fractured father,

A broken mother, a lost brother, a beautiful

Sister—but is heaven really my family,

Are my enemies really actually with me?

All or nothing are these memories,

Remembering feels like a curse,

Tomorrow could be the hearse,

Tonight could be the end—I will

Never know, I will just trust today,

And live with memories that have

Shaped me

Sermon At My Church

I got to preach last month at our Sunday night service. Got to speak on Righteousness. It has been such a blessing being at New Life in Pomona. I love this place! Thank you Cody, Craig and Billy.

How to Help your Kids with Depression

My mom has helped me so much over the years be more than just a default I need your help parent but has been my rock and my friend. Just like the into the light video this is the start of a series of videos tackling depression. My mom talks about what a parent can do. Filmed where it all went down in Laguna Niguel at Salt Creek beach.

Tablet Heart

Tablet crack

Glory shack

Movable temple

Shekinah rental

Skin and bones with

Valley tones

Connected in wrath

Remembered in mercy

Plain tablet

Father cabinet

Dead president

You swirled in regret

Made a dent

Slaving for rent, town

Mountain and tent—

Thirsty summer, better

Than winter—

Heart on the table

Truth verse fable

Oral passing of God

Digressing—get up now,

To the high place

For gold is on the bottom

Carved with boredom—

Before Kingdom come was

Kingdom now without a crown—

On the edges was the man on fire—

Down to the place where lust did pace

The tablets cracked and back up at last—

Shack of shackles in this wilderness—

Freedom was the curse and I thirst for

Garlic—king Pharaoh and the sparrow hold

The same affection for the heart of misdirection—

Hardened is a mystery and little is why I worry—

Better shoes with glory clues—

100 feet a day for the feast to go away—

Filled to our nostrils is the wandering

Pentecostal—manifesting without love,

Twitching without truth, falling over just

Because—without love it’s a circumcised

Memory, the outer is perishing, the law like

A cavity, love like gravity—which weighs more?

Power or just being on the floor? The tablet is new

Now with new rules and new flesh and new songs

To sing inside what freedom brings—we don’t all

Go to the same place—but this tablet called love

Has written it upon me to stay seeking You as

You write it on me those clues of destiny

A tablet heart burning with truth, let how

One lives be the proof


Caffeine tower

Empty lighter

Cigarette full of empty

Something to say has always haunted me

Talker, fast walker, a use to be runner

Sunny side up on those eggs

Dark shadows like bags to carry

Roads real scary for those that want

No fear—worthy is a worthless word

Without the work of not being sure—

Effort is a slave to the peace it takes

To please You, never a yoke without

A stroke, never rest without nights of

Regret for time spent on paying rent—

Is money my curse when I don’t have

A purse to fill with empty pennies?

Questions with no answers is my cancer—

I will answer them in due time

But until then I will sacrifice

The caffeine, the sugar, the lean

And the fat and the news that You

Reward those who seek You, its in

Your hands—the rewards that You



It’s a beauty and and a beat
I am not complete,
Sister brother where are you?
I am close to you,
I wish I was here in repeat,
To press delete on all you do,
Pyramid girl, sand digging,
Smile twisting,
I am into it,
Those second looks,
Bottled water,
Bottled up are those
Secret things you still
On a stage is the sage
You offer,
I am not with you
In reality or in your dreams,
I cannot let go but I should
For up late with this is amiss
I can’t now dismiss

Movie Review: The Prince Of Egypt(1998)

Again, in parenthesis, you can call this ‘favorites of the summer’ and possibly one of the best religious/spiritual film of all time. And if it so happens to be in the animated category then it really doesn’t matter what else can even come close because other than The Passion Of The Christ not many other Christian films come close. Like I had said in the LEGO movie review the animated genre has more going for it then you would even consider on the front end of things.

Writers: Phillip Lazebnick, Nicholas Meyer

Directed by: Brenda Chapman, Steve Hickner

Plot: With this key phrase( in Hebrew the word is Yocheved) a woman says, ” My son, I have nothing I can give, but this chance that you may live.” And so most have heard the story of Moses but this is it. The Palace, the brotherhood and the rebellion. The audacity to confront the evil Pharoah and the same man that murdered a man out of his desire to see justice and to see peace be established to his own kind. Leading the people out of Egypt and with one very climatic scene of the dead sea splitting open this is one worthwhile musical/film.


Other points to be noted: I have heard the story of Exodus my whole life. Stemming from early five to six years old hearing it in Sunday school. And a decade ago( when I really started reading the bible for myself) I really got into the bible and embraced all the stories of Old and New. Most Christians skim over the Old Testament or avoid it altogether because we don’t like what we see when we see God. We don’t like the “Old Testament God” that we say is so divided and so cut off from “grace” and “mercy,” but seeing the way God cares for His people Israel is a more relevant piece of knowledge then perhaps just kitschy Christian films that seem to center more on “being positive” then in actual telling the truth and preaching the Gospel.

The deeper meaning: the story is simple and the characters are complex. That is often times the power of complexity. It is not in the actual storyline where subplots and subtext fuel the main things, rather the beauty lies in the complexity of the people. I am more convinced now more than any other time in my life in watching films that the characters and the humanity that they offer is what stays with me more and most certainly it is in this film’s case. God will have a people fully knit to His heart and to His will. It is a grave mistake for us to look at events happening in the Middle East and to simply gawk over some warped idea that all that remains and matters today is some pseudo Gentile mission that is devoid of Israel. Jesus will remain in the limitations of a man and still be fully God but has not and will not change the fact that He is a Jew and is Jewish and is returning to the city of the great king called Jerusalem. It is a serious error to eliminate Israel from any form of Second Coming theology and even from any belief and teaching that effects the way that we live today.

It is also true that people have misunderstood or overdone modern day Zionism and have become ‘to concerned’ with bringing salvation to the Jews because they are so hardened and missed the first coming, so lets try really hard to make them not miss it a second time. There is a need for balance and for both perspectives but seeing this film inspires that God is for His people Israel and will continued to use them as his battle ax and He will do us until He makes Jerusalem the place where He rules and reigns from and disciplines the nations from there.

Favorite lines: She says, “God saved you to be our deliverer! She says you are Moses, you are our deliverer!”

“God will not abandon you, so don’t abandon us!”

This is must see for everyone and for sure anyone who claims to be a Christian.



Favorite Movie Of The Summer: Review For Wish I Was Here

It would be important for me to mention the content rule in watching films. There is always a chance in searching for great works of film and music that one may have to filter through superfluous darkness that sometimes does have something to do with corruption and enable the storyline to be more believable. However, I am more under the assumption that Hollywood requires a certain amount of swear words, violence and sex to be infused into the film. This can make things difficult for the Christian. It would be sound doctrine for lovers of Jesus and aspire to live pure and Holy lives. But I am also under the impression that fallen people who seek to impact the world with their stories through the lens of film can include not needed darkness yet compile brilliance in reflecting God. The Diablo Cody film Paradise(which I review back in November) tells very striking points about life, God and the pain and confusion that conservative Christians can go through. However, I don’t think it would ever be deemed a Christian film.


Writers: Zack Braff and Adam Braff

Director: Zack Braff

Stars: Zack Braff, Josh Gad, Kate Hudson, Joey King, Mandy Patinkin and Pierce Gagnon

Basic Overview:

In light of the opening paragraph I have to say that there was some displeasing moments in this film including heavy cussing and otherwise some sketchy sexual content but filtering through that there is very subtle yet bold strokes of genius in this movie. I have to make the same content advisory for Garden State(now 10 years old) and its ability to convey the post adolescent struggle of trying to be a man and trying to be a grown up. In fact, in the book Generation Me Jean Twenge actually outlines Garden State as a premiere example of what young adults can drift themselves into post high school. Garden State showed hopes of a young man that was not willing to live the rest of his life numb to hard stuff and numb to the pain. Rather, life is about facing what is hard and embracing all that it has for you. Natalie Portman’s character embodied this and also directly said it in the film toward the end. Life is..(and the world fills in the blank)..whatever you want it to be.

Why I loved it so much..


Wish I Was Here now follows Aiden now  decade later struggling in his marriage and with his kids and still mourning the loss of his mother. Aiden is full of distance. He is not present. Hence, the title, Wish I Was Here. Aiden is not making it as an actor and the swear jar keeps adding the money because of his many cuss words he uses around his young kids. However, the pain of his distance is most felt with his complicated relationship with his dying dad. Gabe(Aiden’s dad) has cancer and is on the deathbed and could go at any minute. The opening monologue reflects on Aiden’s childhood ambition to play superhero. He pretty much says, ” I used to imagine saving the world..to those people out there..but maybe we are just the regular people, the ones who get saved!”

Aidan is trying to get his also at a distance brother Noah to come and join in helping their dad live his last moments. Mandy Patinkin as Saul, however, is so good and so disturbing all at the same time. Its clear to me that one of the clearest story lines of my generation revolves around man and his father and all that goes along with that. So many stories center on some form of ‘quiet desperation’ with dad and how a man really will be messed up his whole life if his dad was a total jerk and didn’t care. Aiden, however, seeks to find here by being there for his dad. Noah seeks to face the pain too even though he admits that he is scared and that losing his mother was the hardest thing he had ever been through and he didn’t want to go through that again.

Aidan makes his other indelible statement to his brother, saying, ” now we are actually called upon to do something that requires some actual bravery!” And Sarah(Kate Hudson) tells the dad that this moment will shape your sons for the rest of their lives..it will shape who they are as men.


I cried a lot during this film. And its nothing I need to hide that I never had the best relationship with my dad, but one thing is for sure you only get one shot at this life. Every man gets once. Every man gets one shot and if he is lucky maybe you don’t die young and God lets you live even longer. I have to embrace hard things and hard people. Not because I am so much softer then the world around me, but because I am just as hard. I wish I was here all the time. All of me gets all the good and the bad that comes with being alive on this earth at this time in history.

So much of stories and films are about human survival and sometimes the hardest things we have to do usually involve those closest to us. Either saying goodbye to someone you kind of want dead and you kind of want gone, yet you know the love you have for them will not fade, even when they are gone. Learning to love yourself and loving your broken dad. Which for most of us is the situation in which we were raised in these are all things that make for excellent stories and for whatever reason Zack Braff makes this whole couple of sentences work. Aidan says, “we are finally called upon to do something great we spend our whole lives wanting to do something great and now requires some actual bravery..and he says to Noah and you go and hide..(Aidan then)  says the only problem with hiding in a fish bowl is that everyone can see you!”

I also like that Aidan quotes T.S. Elliot and the Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock..Aidan says ( from the poem) .“Time yet for you and time for me!”

Come out of hiding and face the inner man in you that maybe didn’t get dealt the best situation with maybe not so healthy parents and live life. Don’t wish you were here, simply just be here. See this film! The for certain highlight of the summer in terms of going to the theater and seeing a movie. Heavenly Father is also a very well crafted song to add to this soundtrack that Bon Iver specifically wrote in response after he saw the film all the way through.

Movie Review: The Guardians Of The Galaxy(2014)

If you have been following this blog at all this summer you know that I have reviewed everything that I have seen in theaters with the exception of Zack Braff’s Wish I Was Here that I will do soon. Wish I Was Here was by far the best movie I have seen in a long time and top five best of this summer. BUT..and a really big BUT..Guardians steals the show for a multitude of reasons. No, I have not read the comic but at this point in loving the whole entire Marvel universe it probably would be a good idea. Real fans of any story love the book and hold all the details of the characters in close scrutiny. The reason most people are disappointed with the movie version of a book or comic is usually because of the effort and the time you invest in the book..point is..its never the same.

BUT, this movie does not need the comic book background. Not that it is not important but this film pulls off everything you love about the comic and the characters


Director: James Gunn

Writers: James Gunn and Nicole Perlman

Stars: Chris Pratt, David Bautista, Zoe Saldana, Bradley Cooper, Lee Pace, Josh Brolin, and Vin Diesel as Groot

Plot Overview: Guardians flashes back to the capture of Peter Quill as a little kid in 1988 losing his mother and planning to live with his grandparents. He then gets taken up into the spaceship. Here we find him as an adult going through the Galaxy as Starlord. Ronan and Thanos are the evil Lords of the galaxies(I am sure the comic has more about that). Quill realizes the orb he has stolen to make some extra cash could potentially destroy the present universe he lives in. In all attempting to make better lives for themselves the Guardians all end up in a space prison together where Rocket the brilliant misfit of a fox helps get the crew out. Drax, who is huge and full of revenge toward Ronan, Groot, Gamora, Rocket and Quill form the Guardians of the Galaxy.

Full of non-stop humor, snappy one-liners, brilliant looking special affects and much action worthy fighting sequences lead me to put Guardians at the top of the list for Marvel’s Avengers. And knowing that after Winter Soldier and Guardians all is building up toward a much exciting Avengers 2.

In the end the Guardians get their crimes erased for saving the world and go on to redeem their “loser like” lives  by trying to do some good.

Very hilarious moments and lines:

Besides an awesome soundtrack there were many hilarious moments that( in the history of me seeing films in the theater) haven’t had to many laugh out loud moments.

Peter’s reference to Kevin Bacon in Footloose was pretty awesome.

Rocket trying to steal a guys fake leg and a dude’s eye is priceless and totally messed up.

Drax not paying attention to the plan was actually very well crafted.

Peter’s awe inspiring line: “life takes more than it gives, but today it is giving us something..a chance to give a crap!” Actually makes me believe that Chris Pratt can do both funny and serious and not to mention getting totally ripped for the role.

Gamora saying, “I have lived most of my life surrounded by my enemies..it would be an honor to die with my friends!”

When Peter does the dance off for Ronan to “ooh child things are gonna get easier” and Ronan says, “what are you doing?” Peter says, “I am distracting you, you terd blossom!” One of the best moments of the film.

When Peter asks the Nova headquarters for help and relays the message he says, “We believe we are total butheads but not one hundred percent..( a word not worth, ahh..repeating) but you just had to be there for that line.

When Drax ask if he could rip a guy’s spine out if he gets mad at that person..Rhomann says that would be murder..the worst crime of all!..priceless.

In conclusion, good can come from the most unlikely of sources. Heroes have the choice to do good or bad and through bad and through being deemed “unlikely” or even called a “loser”. That is what we love and that speaks louder to average people who can feel very bored and not very awesome. So, see it and laugh and buy the soundtrack.