60 Days:Windy

On October 21, 2017 By jareddiehl88In 60 Days of Poetry, Able Source Adventures, ADDICTION, California, CHRSTIAN LIVING, CHURCH, Culture, DAILY LIFE, Football, Girls, HighSchool, Hollywood, Hunger and thirst, ihop, MIND AND BRAINLeave a comment

City to me,

Come forward with me.

Standing for you,

Sitting feels to new.

I texted, I messaged, I said I would

Never live like this again.

Friday in L.A.

That hasn’t been the way.

Hotels for you,

Hotels with you.

Living out of the end of the

New.

I am ready for city.

Ready for windy.

Cause safety,

You remember

Safety? We ditched

That a long time ago.

Caught up in the net.

Feeling the regret.

All the miles on the ten

for you.

All the miles back and forth

With the wishing and the

Wishing.

Sat with the upstate,

Sat with the hesitate.

Can’t see you happy.

Can’t see you new.

Can’t keep playing these videos

Like they were the only creative

I ever knew.

Its beats, baby.

And the windy city

That has me.

I came out here to hide.

I came in here to burn for

You.

Now you want a spin,

Now you want to spiral again.

Take me with you,

Cause at least that’s

Better than the upstate,

Raised, Pt. 2

On February 10, 2017 By jareddiehl88In Book Reviews, California, CHRSTIAN LIVING, Community, Culture, CULTUREPOP, DAILY LIFE, Football, Hollywood, Hunger and thirst, ihop, Jesus Christ, Kingdom Of God, LIFE, Los Angeles, LOVELeave a comment

What you want,

Is what you can’t find,

Cause sun was always on the

Hide,

It was always on the rise,

You made some light,

You carried it tight,

Locked, and surely

Never right,

Tomorrow the shades are getting

Darker,

The purity is burning away

With all the vile things love

Can say,

I wanted to go there to,

Down and up,

And moving towards the shameless

Role I knew you could always play,

I was raised to hunger,

I was raised to wonder,

I was raised to stay under

The covers,

And ask you now?

Can you stay there,

Can you be the one to

Stop this madness,

I was raised with a pure dream,

Now its just a nightmare to

Stay asleep,

These eyes are bright for

You,

Made light for you,

It could kill me soon,

To see you to soon,

To swallow some stars

Without the moon,

I too had to start somewhere,

Raised in pieces,

Still picking them up,

Raised to see,

And that is the

Next part,

Actually seeing..

Memory Wars

On November 6, 2015 By jareddiehl88In 3415612, ADDICTION, BIRTHDAYS, Blogroll, Book Reviews, California, CHRSTIAN LIVING, CHURCH, Community, Culture, CULTUREPOP, DAILY LIFE, DEPRESSION, Discussions, ENCOUNTERSCHOOL, Eternity, FAMILY, FILM, Film Reviews, Football, HighSchool, Hollywood, Hunger and thirstLeave a comment

Inspired by my last week of being 29. November 13th is coming soon to a theater near you. As a child my parent’s would ask me, “Where is that movie playing?” I would say, “in theaters everywhere.” Switchfoot songs and especially their last album Fading West has been a source of inspiration. Here’s to the memories we have..good, bad and eternal.

Remembering to often

Waiting for the coffin,

Another nail for the unseen

Hail,

Remembering those words You

Spoke way back when

That red couch was my best friend—

Anger for the stranger, anger before

The manger now I am the manager

Of my own destiny,

Now I am forgetting the nails, the side

Splitting of Your body, a doubting Thomas,

A doubting spill of the dross,

I empty the burnt things,

The new signet rings,

The sealed love of the greatest

Song to sing, one more week before

The twenties end,

One more 30 years to get it right,

To live with waste is as good as

Haste, for I cannot move forward alone—

All or nothing at all is the song I sing,

Slipping away past the memories that

Haunt me, everyone has a fractured father,

A broken mother, a lost brother, a beautiful

Sister—but is heaven really my family,

Are my enemies really actually with me?

All or nothing are these memories,

Remembering feels like a curse,

Tomorrow could be the hearse,

Tonight could be the end—I will

Never know, I will just trust today,

And live with memories that have

Shaped me

Sermon At My Church

On September 7, 2015October 12, 2015 By jareddiehl88In 3415612, ADDICTION, Blogroll, Book Reviews, California, CHRSTIAN LIVING, CHURCH, Community, Culture, CULTUREPOP, DAILY LIFE, DEPRESSION, Eternity, FAMILY, FILM, Film Reviews, Football, HighSchool, Hollywood, Hunger and thirst, ihop, Jesus, Jesus Christ, Kingdom Of God, Los Angeles, LOVE, MANHOOD, Mental Health, MISSION STATEMENTLeave a comment

I got to preach last month at our Sunday night service. Got to speak on Righteousness. It has been such a blessing being at New Life in Pomona. I love this place! Thank you Cody, Craig and Billy.

How to Help your Kids with Depression

On August 8, 2015 By jareddiehl88In ADDICTION, Blogroll, Book Reviews, California, CHRSTIAN LIVING, CHURCH, Community, Culture, CULTUREPOP, DAILY LIFE, Discussions, Eternity, FAMILY, FILM, Film Reviews, Football, HighSchool, Hollywood, Hunger and thirst, ihop, Jesus, Jesus Christ, Kingdom Of God, LIFE, Los Angeles, LOVE, MANHOOD, MISSION STATEMENTLeave a comment

My mom has helped me so much over the years be more than just a default I need your help parent but has been my rock and my friend. Just like the into the light video this is the start of a series of videos tackling depression. My mom talks about what a parent can do. Filmed where it all went down in Laguna Niguel at Salt Creek beach.

Lies in the cracks

On May 18, 2015May 27, 2015 By jareddiehl88In CHRSTIAN LIVING, Culture, DAILY LIFE, Eternity, FAMILY, Football, HighSchool, Jesus Christ, Kingdom Of God, LOVELeave a comment

I am new to daily life,

I am new to mundane

An expert at insane,

Sugar addiction,

Love friction,

Lack of fruit for this

Cup I feel is never to

Full–

Lies in the cracks,

Lies in the backs that walk

This earth–

Oh God, I have no answers for the futures that

Await me–

Just kids play in the background–

I am weak in every way of the word,

I am on that couch again where you

Sit with me,

A couch family was rarely felt,

Its strips of rips of cloths of colors

Blurred blue now,

Embarased–for I can’t even spell it right,

Never did I like that house we lived in,

It was always shaking,

It was always faking its appearance upon

Me, mountain view behind us,

But heavy rocks upon us—

Where is wrath now?

Upon the world or in

The home? Safety was never

Found, church affairs, no one

Sees your family life, the way you

Use the knife with words to send

Your kids out the door, to tell your

Wife no more saying no to me,

I am the man, submit to me..

Hummmm…ahmmmm..

Really?

Video Replay

On April 22, 2015April 24, 2015 By jareddiehl88In CHRSTIAN LIVING, Culture, DAILY LIFE, Eternity, FAMILY, Football, Hunger and thirst, Jesus Christ, Kingdom Of God, LIFE, LOVELeave a comment

Daily is a mystery

Forged in the mundane

Starved out in the rain—puddles of

Pain they passed out then—everything is

A movie played on replay,

I was once the seed,

Crafted before birth to

Carry the berth

Called it purpose before,

Called it wanting to explore

Call it love for more, never settled

Never satisfied—blood that is red,

Pain that is a guide always looking

For the wrong kind—how has one changed?

How does one gage it?

Seed to bread now ready to feed

‘The lips of the righteous feed many,’

The dead give every penny,

Every last mite, every last might,

Every last late night, every last part

Of the oil it takes in the toil it takes

To keep on giving—

This life is like a video played on replay—

Used to be shut in, used to be closed up,

Used to be in the crowd all the time—

But every last drop has been spilt,

Every last bit of You has been poured out—

Alive is the replay of the video mind you have

Given to me—

Shut in no longer, seed no longer,

Now something stronger,

Something of vinegar they gave You

On the edge of my sword I pierced You—

That man that suffered in the flesh

That stayed silent as He was defiant

Against the accusation—

Honor is a hollow tragedy no longer

Filled in with the story of glory You have

Written—

Bread is where I am, feeding on love

Instead, vultures are above, the sea is

Below filled in is hollow—

The shut in man has nowhere to run

Just stays on the run—

Facing it, facing the world, facing your life—

That is all it takes sometimes—

Let mercy be on replay

For this video of a life You have

Given me

Rewarder

On April 3, 2015 By jareddiehl88In 3415612, Blogroll, Book Reviews, CHRSTIAN LIVING, Culture, DAILY LIFE, Eternity, FAMILY, FILM, Film Reviews, Football, HighSchool, Hunger and thirst, ihop, Jesus, Jesus Christ, Kingdom Of God, LIFE, LOVE, MANHOOD, Mental Health, MIND AND BRAIN, MISSION STATEMENTLeave a comment

Caffeine tower

Empty lighter

Cigarette full of empty

Something to say has always haunted me

Talker, fast walker, a use to be runner

Sunny side up on those eggs

Dark shadows like bags to carry

Roads real scary for those that want

No fear—worthy is a worthless word

Without the work of not being sure—

Effort is a slave to the peace it takes

To please You, never a yoke without

A stroke, never rest without nights of

Regret for time spent on paying rent—

Is money my curse when I don’t have

A purse to fill with empty pennies?

Questions with no answers is my cancer—

I will answer them in due time

But until then I will sacrifice

The caffeine, the sugar, the lean

And the fat and the news that You

Reward those who seek You, its in

Your hands—the rewards that You

Have

Friday Night Lights: Season 3 Review: Ep. 6 & 7

On January 5, 2014January 5, 2014 By jareddiehl88In DAILY LIFE, FILM, Film Reviews, Football, HighSchoolLeave a comment

Season 3, here we come.

Episode #6 It Ain’t Easy Being J.D. McCoy
This episode involves a hazing accident that J.D. participates in given that he is a freshmen. Coach assigns Tim Riggins to make J.D. feel at home. Time shows him what life in Texas is all about. Coach tells Tim: ‘You are a senior, you aren’t gonna be wearing that uniform much longer.” We also see the pressure J.D.’s dad puts on his son. Jason and Tim and Billy all work on the investment house that they paid for. Tyra’s bull riding boyfriend Cash owes his “family” 1,600 in child support. Tyra breaks it off with him. I love all the talks that Jason Street and Coach Taylor have. Jason tells him that he thinks he made a mistake buying the house. Coach says,” it always looks bad before it gets better…he says, ‘you are following through, don’t start giving up!’ Matt and Julie reconnect and go to a lake and kiss and fall asleep at the cabin. Things get a little out of hand when Tim take J.D. to a party and J.D. drinks.

Episode #7 Keeping Up With Appearances
Billy wants Tim to get into college. Tim keeps getting letters from OU.Coach runs into problems with his fullback. Who sees Tami and they realize his parents don’t know that he plays football. Jason doesn’t cave in the price for selling the house. Buddy tries to connect with his little kids and they give him a hard time. Jemarcus,the fullback, can’t play on Friday because of the parent situation. Buddy says,’they hate me, all a man has is his children.’ Buddy’s daughter says, ‘I wish you weren’t my father.’
The parents of Jemarcus hear out Tami and Eric about how football is good for men. Herc and Jason argue over the price of the house. Tami says to someone,”this is the beginning of the rest of your life, you are a good person, and this is just the beginning.” J.D. has a rough game. Coach tells him, ‘I had expectations and it was hard to live up to them!’
Billy makes a highlight tape of Tim for colleges. Coach, in the video, says, “What defines Tim Riggins,no fear, toughness.” Jason struggles and tells Lila,’You think I could make it somewhere else?’

Friday Night Lights: Season 3, Episodes 1-5 Review

On January 3, 2014January 3, 2014 By jareddiehl88In DAILY LIFE, FILM, Film Reviews, Football, HighSchoolLeave a comment

What are a way to kick off the New Year. I hope you all have been enjoying the recent “older” reflections I have been posting. I still intend to continue to eternal football week post/spirit. But as the new year is here, there are lots of plans( in my head) to start talking of books, films and other relevant topics. For now, there is this..

Episodes 1-3
Season 3 of Friday Night Lights starts off in conflict. Keep in mind that the show broadcasts its main issue: the Dillon Panthers. Everything revolves around how good the team will or will not be. Coach Taylor is back in the saddle as Coach. J.D. McCoy joins the team with his extra controlling dad behind his every move. Tami gets flack for the money that the school board has to spend. The team and the boosters, led by Buddy Garrity himself, want a megatron screen for the Panther games. Billy( Tim’s brother) proposes to Mindy(Tyra’s sister) and she says yes. Lila and Tim decide to give their relationship a try. Tyra decides to run for Student Council president.

Episode #4 Hello, Goodbye
Call it the episode of ‘shaking things up!’ Matt’s mom shows up in his life. He yells at his mom slightly with years of pain built up. He tells her, “I don’t need your help, I needed it 10 years ago when you left!” She says, “I will never forgive myself for leaving you!” Tyra finds herself rejecting Landry and dating a bull rider(one of Billy’s friends). Tami and Eric but heads and tell each other, ”
I miss the coach’s wife, she says I miss the principal’s husband!” Coach Taylor continues to feel pressure from all over as to who to start at quarterback. Smash gets help from coach regarding his coming tryout. Coach says, “God has placed you to do what you do best, go all the way!” Matt’s mom wants to help with the grandma situation. She says, ‘you are all alone in this!’

Coach Taylor moment: “take a look at brian williams, he would have said theres a guy with a hell of a lot of conviction.”
Brian “Smash” Williams makes the team at OU. Thanks the coach for everything.

Episode #5 Every Rose Has Its Thorn
Julie Taylor, the sweet and innocent 15 or 16 year old(by now). She decides to get a tattoo despite what her parent’s might think. Jason and Tim decide to buy Buddy’s old house and fix it up and try to flip it for more money. This is the beginning of that endeavor. Tyra and Cash, the cowboy, continue to bond and like each other.
Matt feels pressure to quit the team because Coach is starting J.D. McCoy at quarterback and not him. I think in this episode Julie’s parents make her remove the tattoo.

THE RUCKUS JOURNAL

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