Interlude- Body

Body of yours,
This life of poise,
This world of noise.
This place I cover,
This place I hover,
Anger you stored up,
Wrath for the hungry,
Treasures for the lonely,
Are you telling me to stop,
Or are you telling me to stay?

Body of yours,
White and pale,
Snow and hail,
Rain and reign,
Are you still king?
Are you still the rearrange?

Cause we never had furniture,
Cause we worried about future,
Cause we needed new furniture,
Cause we can’t change future.

Seated on us,
Seated within us,
This life is poise,
This world of noise,
I am crying out and loud,
Time is going by,
Time is flying by,
Are you still as loud as you used to be?

Is noise what we need,
Or are you louder than you should be,
Is noise what you reign on in the rain,
Is this the last time I talk about things
I don’t do.

Tell me,
Body expand,
Body of land,
Don’t let this body fall apart.

Face Him

Cops verse the cape and
There is still an ache,
Fake tattoo forged for
You, selfie us the wretched
Tragedy, alone is the new
Suicide, behind the phone
Is the new home,
I cannot call out anymore
For I press sleep in and
Snore, but now is the time,
On the curb man waits and
Doesn’t hesitate,
Add the weight,
Add the sugar
Add me a new flavor,
I am dead while I seem to
Live, but I will not stop,
I will give it all,
I will face Him,
Behold, says Him, do not
Waste your youth,
Death is proof nothing
Can do it like knowing Him,
I will spin in circles
I will push myself down,
I will not just survive,
I am going to face death
And the fear that comes with it,
I will last more than my peers,
I will know more that all those
Around me,
If that is pride then I do
Not want to hide,
I will face Him,
I will ask again,
Keep me alive while
I remain in the pain of
Living this life

Not Pinned Down

I am not pinned down,
I am not with,
I am always against,
I am within the courtroom,
I am guilty as charged
And charged daily with the
Same crime—I have time,
I have resource, I have space
For You and I spend and run not
On what will do it, what will satisfy—
I can never be the same again,
For love has touched me,
Love has given me a need
To communicate the things
Man cannot touch or taste
Or see—I am not pinned down,
I am ruined,
I live different,
It has touched me a little
And my crime is not trying,
Not reaching,
Not burning for You—
To be the expert means
A cut ties with,
Means a life to fight for

If God Is Everywhere, Then Where Am I?

Most of us have heard this verse in Romans 11:36 “For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be glory forever. Amen.” Paul is concluding his wonderfully complex expounding of Israel and the church. That’s a whole other post for another time. But what has been striking me recently has been the awareness that God is more aware of us then maybe we are of Him. When I say ‘awareness’ I simply mean the conviction deep down that God is of, to and through Him are all things.

All things( for the purpose of this post) means all stories and all sounds. It means all expressions and all the colors paint their strokes to point to the unknown. Everyone and everybody, whether male or female, or young or old has the longing towards God and towards love. So, when we read that God is in all things and around us and that ‘His invisible attributes’ testify to Him, then that also means all movies and television and all music. It means that the artist has been given the dreadful and wonderful task of telling a story that relates to people. Exaggeration and reality all collide as the streaks of hope, pain, suffering and purpose present themselves to all of us. This is a huge subject that I intend to expound on as time goes forward. But as you are reading movie reviews know that this truth of ‘TO, THROUGH, AND OF’ are what it is pointing to. We all have the longing to see God in what is out there.

This doesn’t mean we should look at and hear just anything. I do believe in purity of both the eyes and the ears. I believe that the trigger for much immorality can be what you allow your eyes to look at. Usually it means what you allow yourself to see on purpose, rather then just what you see at work and at the grocery store. I do believe in the eye gate, but I also want to contend to put the God lens on a little bit and see Him everywhere and in everything( given the proper boundaries). When you start to go down this path of not just believing that you are encountering God at church or in a sermon or when you listen to Christian radio, then you start to realize that you can actually encounter God no matter the time of day and no matter your physical location.

Enter into the story. God’s story.

Fallen Me. Bad News Before The Good News

I don’t have to preface what I am about to say because I can say whatever I want on my own blog. God bless America for this freedom that will be taken away one day by demonic-possessed men and women working for the Anti-Christ all to fulfill God’s great purposes before He comes and slays the heads of every single wicked King on this planet that does not bow before Him..A Jewish man that is the only one worthy to execute justice. So before you think your justice initiatives are really impacting the food ministry at your church does it line up with Christ? Does preaching His Gospel actually go beyond just feeding people and doing good stuff in a church building?

God does not dwell in temples made by hands..

My intro is a little bit of a rant but my aim..please, hear me, my aim is not to judge or condemn..I am examining myself and sharing with you what I am staring at when I look at Jared Diehl in the mirror.


It is believed that in the Christian life(at least most have some of this going on) that just going to church or activities at church and listening to someone preach on the radio equates to transformation. I do not want to go into all the details of this point because that is a thousand posts to come on the subject of sanctification.

Just hearing truth and the concepts of say salvation, justification(saved by faith, not by works), christian ethics, tithing, giving, forgiveness, showing compassion to a dying world, exc..

Just hearing does not mean change and does not actually mean you understand and are getting it. I think the biggest obstacle to going past just hearing is the already beyond warped conscious that we already possess. Did not David exclaim in his penitence..”In my mother’s womb..I was conceived in sin..”

John Calvin still lives in modern minds today. Calvinism. Neo-Calvinsim. Pelagianism. Mark Driscoll and John Piper–ism(Godly men..not making fun of them) carry the flame of TULIP. Some might add a few more letters. I don’t get all of it but I do agree that Total Depravity is pretty close to bearing its name. It means TOTAL. It means we cannot save ourselves. It means we are not good. It means no one is good.

Romans 3:10-19 says:

“There is none righteous, no, not one;

There is none who understands;

There is none who seeks after God.

They have all turned aside

They have together become unprofitable;

There is none who does good, no, not one.”

“Their throat is an open tomb;
With their tongues they have practiced deceit”;

“The poison of asps is under their lips”; 

“Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness.”

“Their feet are swift to shed blood;

Destruction and misery are in their ways

And the way of peace they have not known.”

“There is no fear of God before their eyes.”
 Now we know that whatever the law says, it says to those who are under the law, that every mouth may be stopped, and all the world may become guilty before God. Therefore by the deeds of the law no flesh will be justified in His sight, for by the law is the knowledge of sin.”(NKJV)

Our world craves darkness. Another passage to be quoted would be John 3:19-21(The whole passage of course needs to be read too) but look at this:

And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.”

My world craves darkness. It can be easy to point the finger and think that ‘we are in the world and not of it’ so look at those sodomites, those homosexuals, those sexually immoral..geesh don’t they know that their end is the Lake of Fire to burn in the presence of the Lamb? Yes, all true but I am shining the magnifying glass on me. One Direction can sing all they want, “Let’s live while we are young.” J-LO can loudly proclaim, “We can do anything we want, so live it up!”


The world is the world I live in and I am the darkness Jesus talks about. I am the resistance to Him. The answer to the pop lyrics is that you can imagine that you are doing what you want. You can imagine that at college your parents don’t know what you are up to unless you put in on facebook which would only break their hearts even more. You can and I can imagine that ‘doing what we want!’ is what makes America so special and so unique and so set apart from all those other communist dictators out there. No, that is the problem. We will answer for our deeds and for our actions and most of all, for our choices. Mercy is to be had and God is beyond good and will forgive anyone for anything, but it is still a choice. And most will choose darkness.

I am everything Paul lists just in Romans 3, not to mention all the other places. I am all of those descriptions and more and most likely worse then those descriptions.

I have not a very exciting life so its much easier for me to just talk about other people. I guess I am a leader so its okay to break everyone open because I am trying to be a good leader and I am trying to help them. Really? Talking crap about people really helps them.

I think giving a quarter for someone to take the bus is doing a good deed for the day while I am mostly thinking about how I can waste more money at Starbucks, or on movies, or on eating crappy food. But because I please everyone and appear to be doing things right by praying at my church and praying loudly on the microphone I guess I am fighting the darkness..right?


Sorry to sound negative on myself. I am done beating myself up. I hope I can find life in God to the point of not just talking about my sin with Him. I hope that is not all we talk about in heaven. Its a work in progress.

What I am mostly saying in this attempt to make the point that I highly underestimate my fallen desires. I think I am much better off then I really am. But the good news, however, is that myself and everyone reading this, we do not have to stay this way. Its rather more important for us to understand the bad news before we can rejoice in the Gospel, which means “good news.”

It is both an error to think we are better then what we really are and call our good deeds godliness when it can not be that. “A form(appearance) of godliness, but denying its power.” I fear that we are getting itching ears. And I am, again, looking at me first.

It is much easier for me to believe in a book like ‘Your Best Life Now’ then it would be for me to meditate on Romans 3 and John 3. It would be much easier for me to just feed people at our church’s food ministry and call it making an impact on people or even dare to call it the same thing as love. Love is not food. Love is not stuff. The Gospel is not just for the “blessings” and for a “better life.” Have you read the Declaration of Independence? Have you really believed that we are founded on Godly principles or have some kind of covenant with God because ‘God Bless America’ is the signet phrase on our green money? To my understanding the only covenant nation with God is Israel. I mean Israel in the past and Israel today. So, God so keeps His word that when Israel disobeys God He corrects them by sending the Assyrians, the Chaldeans, and any other surrounding enemy..all for the purpose of correcting them. In Ezekiel alone some 70 times God says, ‘So that they may know that I am the Lord.’ So, covenant with God looks like that. I am pretty sure Russia or North Korea or China have not invaded the shores of America. But is is surely possible if we want to make that kind of commitment back to God.

It hurts to be honest. And the bad news is that we are in danger. We are in grave danger as a country if we think our prosperity means God is for the things we do as a nation. I don’t want to bash America. And God does love us and loves the 300 plus million people who live here..but its still bad news before the good news that we need to hear. Our American Dream is dying. Thanks Adam Smith for breaking it down for us, but it doesn’t take an expert sociologist to say that it is dying. I can’t speak for everyone because I have had a pretty easy life. Yes, my dad was not the best father and my mom stayed with him for much to long and now I have bipolar depression partly because of the abusive home life we had. But no one would have ever guessed that because we went to a charismatic church that loved intercession.

Again, that didn’t change the pain, or the genetic disposition I have, or the negative lies that have warped my mind that a man I have to face so I don’t screw my kids up.

And I love my parents. I still love my dad and my mom and without them I would be way far off doing God knows what. I honor them. I am simply saying that our past is not just buried because ‘all things have become new.’ I hope you understand. We have pain.

Life is hard and I don’t really know what else I have experienced that would put me in a place to hate God because God is not the problem and not the source of the world’s suffering and injustice. He has given us a choice and the choice is ours to spite of our darkness to live lives of humility and choose what is right over what is evil and wrong.

The challenge for us us to make the Ruckus. To make the noise about what is good and who it comes from. Good is from above. ‘Every good and perfect gift.’ ‘God cannot deny Himself’ and that means that He will not compromise any part of Himself. He will always make the perfect choice. If I end up in Hell then He did everything possible for me to not go there. He will be right.

If we can understand our fallen tendencies I think we can better understand the mercy and the goodness that God offers us. I am much to tired of talking about changing and talking about loving and talking about having God in my life when really my life would look a lot different if I was to truly say, ‘God, I need you and I am desperate for you.’

I feel no condemnation. I feel it would help us to evaluate with the word of God and not by the church culture or the culture in general. We are the light. We are the salt. We are not to hide from the world. We are to shine in it.





I will die,
I will fight,
I will build,
I will yield to
I will spill it when you ask
When you undress,
When you uncover,
When you pull back the
Covers—naked as I am,
Naked in the sand, buried
Again—I will cave,
I will save myself,
I will not deny you,
Yet I always do,
I am on the beach,
You are in the reach,
You are eating like its
No feast, you are resurrected,
We are still alive,
We cannot see you,
Yet you let us see—
You present yourself
Alive to us—we are fools,
We will deny, will choose not
You, will choose destruction,
And the internal eruption—
I am bled, and I am dead—
Your word does undress
Us, naked we are before You—
I will not cave unless its in
Me, I will not fall unless You
Are real—in crisis, what will
You do?

Secrets And Fireworks

You did tell me then,
That you did not know how
To swim, or how to use your strength?
For just a drink would make me
Think that satisfaction is possible
When all becomes rubble,
I reach, I grab, I stab,
For the greatest sin is to turn in,
To turn within, to live in suicide,
To live apart from the light,
Upon the blankets and the stagnant
Humidity there was humility, I
Refuse to not waste my life on you,
Secrets, fireworks, a backseat chaser, The same changes, the same faces,
Secrets now under water, you couldn’t
Learn to swim, but the deeper you fall I will be there, for fire got the best of
Me, and love has taken a hold of
Me, give me secrets Lord,
Give me fireworks

The Parts, The Person

This is solely a reflection on the parts but not the person. My good friend Benji Nolot spoke of pornography at the One Thing conference. I am grieved at my own bad choices in times past. Porn is ruining what God had designed for the highest of pleasures. Where it is leading is hard to fathom. It’s violence.

Just the parts, please,
Just the ease of choosing
Your pieces, but not the whole,
I sing into the light at the darkest
Of night what I worry, what I bury,
I should of never told you what I had
Inside, man clicks in seconds,
He chooses parts, he chooses the
Organs, the upper region, the lower
Abdomen, the curling stomachs,
Man chooses the parts and rejects
The person, after the music fades,
And the mist ends, the college drive,
Down the 435, I learned it then,
The tightness of her clothes,
The lack of the unknown, the
Curves and the edges, the deception
Of her collections , the misfortune
That her parts were exposed,
Covenant lack has made it’s
Dent, and lent is a passed sound,
The person is the emphasis,
Man searches as an organism
For multiple orgasms from the
Spasms of death that are found
In the multiplicity of the parts,
And not the person,
I repent O God, for choosing
Violence, for ruining my marriage,
For destroying the gift of sex,
All that I regret is found in
The parts, and the honor of
The person, that has been missing


I am an accident,
A misconception,
A misfire at conception,
A drunken mess of intercourse,
No man accidentally is born,
Has been torn and with scorn,
And in between the palm trees,
Is a little unease, a little to
Appease, you weren’t created on
Purpose says the man with no
Purpose, says the drifter, says the
Adjuster, says the alabaster I used
To carry, but an accident seems
Less scary, for on purpose He formed
But He knew, He has ordained birth
To take place, I cannot die without
His permission, the angels look
In succession, God loves so deeply
All of the humans,
In submission I live in this purpose,
With free admission the angels
Look and peer and see,
Humans hurt badly but
He wants them anyway,
I give in, I am not an

Little Sister

Song Of Solomon 8:8 says, “We have a little sister, and her breasts are not yet grown. What shall we do for our sister on the day she is spoken for?”(NIV)

I believe this refers to the younger generation. The MTV producers aiming at 8 year olds. All the perversion and all the distractions. I desire to speak for my generation but to think of the one beneath me.

Doors open
Emergency spoken
Little sister, where is she,
Where is He that looks down at her,
Perversion has been the daily submersion,
The women’s body is a bleeding tomb,
Daily a muse, daily under the lusted eye,
Adultery is in this line of sight,

Packed away real tight,
Words that form the shadow
Around me—eternity is in me,
Bleeding is my sleep, for in it
I am dreaming evil dreams, evil
Ways to disobey You,

It looks like good, it sounds like
True, if it is not You I will die
Too, all of me is waiting, waiting
To redo it, years of misfits, years
Of being a wallflower, on the outside,
Looking for the world’s in,

Little sister, she is in front of me,
She is below me, a man would love,
Would give, would face it for the younger
One, for the lovely one that knows not
Of love and mercy, give that to Me,
To my friends, to my amends to be
Made, corrupted world can’t touch
The love and the sword that lives
Inside these words I pass by,
Live by, live to die, live to lye
Next to truth, little sister, she
Is being spoken for—so I speak
For her!