When did you realize
I missed your sunrise
And came my demise
My downfall was wanting
You at all

I’ve painted this town your
Favorite color to shower you
With red with dead sounds
And leaps around this drama
For the season has changed
And love is not tame,
A safe man I don’t want
To be, a man do I have to
Be,

Would the world notice
My onus to you, my world
To shatter and thoughts to
Scatter, you are my disaster
My beat faster, my alabaster
Only one can have that and
Deserve that, but now tame
Is not sane or part of the game

Loving is a realization that
It can all be shaken in a
Moment so love like its the
Last moment you ever would
Have

Hungry you have made
Me, in this place I cannot
Stand it for you are not
A violent police man telling
Me how I ought to live or
How to be, rather I have
Spent a decade under the
Influence that Holy

Congruence is coming soon
To rescue me and all of
Humanity ,now its been
Rain and years of pain
And I say yes to you still
Tonight touch me and make
My eyes look upon and wait
Upon Holy things, yes I want
That, rest in me tonight

I am not asking what am I
To do with my life
I am asking who do I
Want to become

For the proof is in my
Choices and the vices
That splices the good
Part of me and all of me
You do ask and I cannot
Afford to live dead and see
Dead all of my days,

For deep goes to deep
Pain and its terrain in
Me, nothing is free in
This corrupted river we
All swim in,

What will I be in twenty
And plenty of time piled
Up and to know you will
That be me, to know about
You cannot be me, it weighs
Heavy on me now to
Get louder with you,
Red colors like led and
Carries me down

Help me know who I am
And let me understand

Listening to this song by Bon Iver and inspiring me.

I knew I was not magnificent
To you, you wanted the best
Parts of me, I wanted a break
That was a mistake, now I still
Ache and wait for you,

The gray hairs on my head
Enlist me instead, on the
Beard they feel weird, but
Without you is the strangest
Thing I can ever feel for
Now is the time to live
And give all I can have to
Have you,

I just see your youth
As proof that you still
Live inside of me as just
A distant memory and
You burn and burn with
Fire all around me, you
Rarely come around here
Around the pier I do here
And daily swear to the sky
I see you walk by, but now
Seperate we live,

The medicine spills in
And out of me, for because
Of you I am not balanced out
I am without the medicine
And I was not magnificent
To you

I wonder about you
I wonder what to do
For these songs play
On repeat and I think
Only of what is not lonely

I waited, I waited in
The rain for it to be
Plain with grays and blacks
And attacks of brownish
Shadows but in the color
You shined bright, with
Headbands of bright it
Kept me up at night,

I know, I really know you
Won’t keep me on the shelf
Up there with manuals of
Love and life and the right
Way to live,but no, death no
Cannot be talked about,
For dying I have been
Trying to do,just for you

The memories of those
Days, yes, the sun fades to
Black, you’ve stayed bright
Despite the loss of light
That shined upon us

Just can’t come to grips with it

Age and matter and the atoms of

Existence, now persistence is a

Resistant force inside of me, for

Giving up never came easily,

Now clicking on the things that

Bring death man makes his meth

And smokes himself dead,

Corruption speaks on the big

Screen and reveals unseen

Forces living on the inside of

Me, I wait and take the long

Way home tonight, thoughts

Of you and what you do carry

Me through the toughness of

Life and the harm it brings to

Us, pain, yes, 28 years later

Pain speaks its course and

Way inside of me, so for

Now I will lay the evil down,

Lay the love of my life down

And wait for you to call and

Answer when I fall—to you,

I wait all day long