I, Too * 12 Hours Later..

January 30th from 12pm to 12am. 12 hours of reflection.
Building something,
Something from the start of today,
Waking up and running as fast as I can,
3 miles and counting.
Calling mom on updates and
Such, asking for revelation,
Then it comes to me,
All the great things came in the
Waiting, in the stillness, in the
Wilderness, in the suffering,
In the greatness of what we have
Been looking for all along.
Yes, I too, have suffered,
And suffered recently.
Been up all night wondering
About the fight and the fists and
The things that are called future.
Yet, this is the invitation,
I am not sold or solid,
Not shaken either,
But moved around and tossed
To and fro,
Asking You: how does one grow?
He says wait for the lights and ask
Not for the blinders,
My eyes did wander
And look a little to long,
Starbucks, again, I thought
You were over that flavor,
But to the corner of that place
Was someone standing out of place.
The looked as if they have been to
The blue car before,
They asked for more,
Yes, I too give in to seduction.
I ran away and walked along the way,
I filmed and captured my self by the
Sea and the tilt of the lights that spin
Before night,
I, too, lose the dusk,
So fast and quick it does go..
I drove and drove and yet those
City lights were on my left and
You voice was the loudest of them
Are we talking the same,
Are you the same?
Are we the same struggle?
Home came late and so did that text,
It invited me in and crunched the numbers,
This will cost just like the last time, and
The tenth time before that.
I want love and the last long,
And the love that lasts long,
But, I, too want the bed you made,
And the mess you make,
And the mistake that came with
Saying go instead of no!
I, too, am up late,
Because the day torments me too,
It calls me too, it calls for change,
A serious rearrange.
A serious move everything around kind
Of winter,
One, where, I, too am cold and hardened
By the wind,
And by the sound that calls me

The TV on

Day like now,
Wish I was stronger
TV growing stranger.
Lasting for the longer,
This show has its strangest
Of things,
But you were still the last of
The rest to come.
Wish you had more to give,
Wish you had less to throw away
Cause that’s all gotten in the way.
Wish you called a little more
Or am I the one saying sorry to
I know you assumed I had the zoom in on
I had this camera set to do whatever it takes
To get that shot,
That center fold picture of Ya.
I know it seems like your body is
All that matters,
Cause it is.
It is the drawing on the table,
And the lack of my stable that
Got you to go and get new on us.
I know you aren’t stronger
Than anyone else,
Just weaker than you want
To be.
TV still the strangest of
And you’re still the rearrange
In this relationship thing.
TV still on,
Cause that’s all that matters.

The Color Red

A lot that I need to speak upon. Elections. Jesus’ worth. The picture of Jesus as a lion in Narnia and my take on wanting to live with all my heart!

The color red

Red lights guide me some would

Claim, swing states in the balance, heart

In defiance to any kind of party for change,

Trusting leaders now in front of me,

Counsel says ‘come to me, come and follow me’

Young I’ve been up on the beach with a breach in

Me, have I built something that will get swept away?

Safety, safety! Calls to me, says, ‘stay normal, stay safe’

Adventure, chances, and risk I say—to to many years of

Waiting, waiting for those chances to come back to me—

Red eyes keep me going now, up late searching always

For the deeper meaning—world, see world is in transition

And I got one single ambition—to live, to love, to be free

Inside all the scariest places—fear, you see was just glorified

Yesterday, just for one day! But now the mask of safety comes

Off—He is good, but He is not safe says the lion and asks me

Will you sit in fear, will you live in trembling—risk, no one wants

That and suffering, suffering from chances taken—who wants to

Live with that—now, now be the time to live without regrets

To trust the kings in His hands, to comprehend with all in you that

Trusting this kind of tension is the only non fiction, the only true

Way to waste away—waste away at a life that is worthy, a life

Well done—for the color red of blood it stamps a stop sign upon

My sin, it stops me from taking it for granite—grace, grace is made

For us to take chances but to not trample upon the King Himself

Who bled the color red to have us

The Power of the Tongue in Proverbs

Along with studying the fear of the Lord in Proverbs, I am also looking at the power of the tongue and the power of our words. There are over 105 verses that address the subject of speech. Words like “mouth, lips, speech and tongue” are all used to emphasize the importance of how we talk. Here are some speech verses to meditate on:

Proverbs 10:31 “The mouth of the righteous brings forth wisdom, but the perverse tongue will be cut off.”


Proverbs 10:32 “The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable, but the mouth of the wicked, what is perverse.”


Proverbs 13:3″Whoever guards his mouth preserves his life; he who opens wide his lips comes to ruin.”


Proverbs 18:21 “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.”

In the Gospel of Mathew Jesus says, “Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.” Solomon says in Proverbs 4:23 that we should “keep our heart with all vigilance for from it flow the springs of life.” Musing James says in 3:6 that the tongue “is a fire, a world of unrighteousness.” If, by common sense, interpret what the Scripture is telling us we see the important connection of guarding our heart with guarding our speech. Jesus was telling his followers that whatever is residing in their heart of hearts would eventually come out by the words of their mouth. Later he said “by words you will be condemned and by your words you will be justified.” He was pointing to the future Day when He, Jesus, would judge every idle word of humanity. Solomon urges us to guard our fragile hearts so that we would choose life and  choose to speak life to one another. James expands our view of our little tongues by calling it a “world of unrighteousness(sin).”

In conclusion, we need to watch the words that are coming out  of our mouth. We need to fill our minds with the word of God and with the truth about His character and person. We need to ask the Holy Spirit to enable us to speak rightly about God and about each other. When we choose to speak life we choose God’s way of maturity and growth in the Spirit. Practically, I urge you to meditate on these verses mentioned. I urge you to make it a point throughout your day to talk to the Holy Spirit about your speech. Blessings! Hope this helps you in your journey of understanding the power of the tongue.

Understanding the fear of the Lord

Proverbs 2: 4-5 says, “If you seek it like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.”

When we seek for understanding we seek for peace. Peace is the result of satisfaction and clarity. I can have a knowledge of what God is like and Who He is but without understanding I might find offense in my heart at His ways. The fear of the Lord must be understood rightly and interpreted through the lens of God’s love and His mercy. I desire to be a person who stands under(another way of saying understand) the word of God and what God says about Himself.

I urge you to seek out the fear of the Lord as if it were a hidden treasure.

The Fear of the Lord in Proverbs Pt. 2

In reading Proverbs 10-15 the fear of the Lord is highlighted six out of the 14 times it is mentioned in this book. Today, I would like to look at three of these verses.

10:27 “The fear of the Lord prolongs life, but the years of the wicked will be short.”

14:27 “The fear of the Lord is a fountain of life, that one may turn from the snares of death.”

15:16 “Better is a little with the fear of the Lord than great treasure and trouble with it.”

The benefits of fearing the Lord are astounding. As I mentioned Proverbs 19:23 says that the fear off the Lord leads to life and gives us rest. 14:27 says that the fear of the Lord is a fountain of life, along with 10:27 promising a prolonged life. The theme of life and satisfaction keeps coming up in my heart as I read and meditate on these verses. Jesus promises in John 7 that whoever believes in Him out of his heart will flow rivers of living water(7:37-38). My favorite story in the Gospels is found in John 4. It is the story of the women at the well. The women, awestruck that Jesus, a Jew, would even speak with her, finds herself in a conversation with the Son of God. Jesus tells this women who He is and what He can give her. John 4:10 says, “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is that is saying to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.” First: We must know that God desires to give us good things. Second: When we know He gives good things we ask. 4:13 concludes this topic of conversation saying, “Everyone who drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty forever. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” This is similar language to 7:37-38. When we fear Him we come to Him; when we come to Him we find rest and satisfaction.

Jesus delights in the fear of the Lord as Isaiah 11 states. So, the issue of life, Jesus and satisfaction is that if we delight in Jesus and His love it will lead us to a place of fearing Him. I will most likely obey His commandments without begrudging Him if I am in love with Him. Jesus tells the disciples in John that if we(the body of Christ) love Him we will obey Him. Out of an overflow of love we fear God and in fearing God we find life, rest and are satisfied with our obedience to Him. Lastly, we shall not despise the days of small beginnings. It is easy for us to become discouraged and how little we know God and how little our hearts move at His passion. Proverbs 15:16 says that if we have a little bit of the fear of the Lord we are in a far better place then temporary abundance.

How do I know if I am fearing the Lord? Many times we try to evaluate our heart before the Lord in the wrong way. We want to know what we are doing wrong so we can fix it then come to God without any problems. This is not the way of Christ. The way you know if you are fearing the Lord is by the fruit in your life. If you are finding yourself satisfied and hungry for God than you probably are fearing the Lord. If you find yourself far away from this reality than you probably should not condemn yourself but ask for a revelation of the fear of the Lord.

Hope this helps. Give me your thoughts on the fear of the Lord.

The Fear of the Lord in Proverbs

My goal for the summer is to begin writing a commentary on the book of Proverbs. I began reading a Proverb a day back in April and started journaling about it on my trip to California. For the past month, since school ended, I have been reading and rereading the chapter of the day, highlighting the verses that impact me the most. In my commentary I want to list the major themes of the Proverbs and referance verses for each theme. One of the many themes in this book is the fear of the Lord.

The fear of the Lord is: the beginning of wisdom, the hatred of evil, it leads to life, you are blessed if you fear the Lord, it prolongs life, and is a fountain of life. The Fear of the Lord is not only mentioned in Proverbs but is found throughout the entirety of Scripture. Synonymous to the Fear of the Lord is obedience to the voice of God. God has spoken to us through His word(66 books in the bible) and through the Holy Spirit who dwells inside every believer. Through prayer we can experience the fear of the Lord. Through a life of prayer we can live with the fear of the Lord and with time we can gain a clear understanding of it. I desire, in my life, to be a man that fears the Lord. I desire to be a person who is radiating with the fear of God.

During this fast I am going to focus on discussing the fear of the Lord. A few posts ago(40 days of dying to self) I mentioned that I want to share with you the revelation that I’ve been receiving during this fast. The primary thing that has been on my mind has been the Fear of the Lord. My prayer has been: Lord, give me the fear of the Lord and satisfy my heart. Proverbs 19:23 connects these ideas. If we have it we rest satisfied. What does this look like in our lives?

Resting satisfied means you go to sleep with an ache for God. Akin to Mathew 5:6, which guarantees satisfaction when we hunger and thirst for righteousness. Resting implies peace. As Paul prayed for the Philippians to know ‘the peace of God that surpasses understanding.’ When my life is consummed with love for God and love for His ways I don’t have time to sin. I don’t have time to waste on the ‘things of this world.’ When I fear the Lord I truly live in the way that I was created to live. Living intimatly with Jesus.

This is my prayer for my life, for you, and for this nation; that we would Fear the Lord all of our days and rest satisfied.