Red Eyes (summer 2012)

The use of Red Eyes first came from the Switchfoot song Red Eyes. It was such a perfect ending to Hello Hurricane. I can’t tell you how many times I have blasted this while driving and rocking out. The line in the song, ‘nowhere feels safe to me, nowhere feels home, even in crowds I am alone.’ I dig and when I was writing this I was thinking of how much I appreciate my mom. She is a flight attendant. I find it slips into many a poems my references to airplane and airport language. I love using the idea of traveling as a device to show the escapism in our souls. Jetway, fuselage, my samsonite, turbulence..Wanting to not be around certain people at times, feeling lonely, wanting to run away. God sees. And in God seeing our cry for acceptance should give us red eyes. Either we cry or we pull our hair out wrestling with longings that are most of the time just a sign that God is doing more in us and that their is more…

All my life been searching for that deep down satisfaction

Now I am lacking and missing in action, love has slipped from

Me, love has moved away from me, now the sky opens up pleasantly,

And draws near to me, hearts all around open up to me, now I can

Barely see, red eyes tonight, Persian queen tuck me in, make me clean,

Turbulence you lived in, turbulence you stayed in, out the door it became

Fall to blame, winter to never change, balmy breeze to put you at ease,

Orange town on fire now, down town a look to tell all, see safety is what

I want, but love is what you have, nothing now tastes the same, not that

Little bit of fame that I have to my own name, now all I want is for things

To never change, now I feel like I need to rearrange this time of mine,

And change my mind to be a man now, to grow up now, and give in now

To that which should overtake my choices, volition kicking, premonition

Down the freeway, just a backseat chaser listening to those in front now

To afraid to drive down this narrow road, unsure as always of that which

Sits inside of me, doubting that power so easily, red eyes tonight trying

To get it right, up late for all the wrong reasons, notebooks full of lies,

Continuing to pile up, now Lord keep me screwed up, fix up now on that which

Is needed, new revolutions per minute down this freeway drive, the

Summer sense changing now, all my expectations lifted now, just waiting

For change, but now Love is all that remains, time no more needed to be

Wasting away, time now for me to live and say yes to you today

 

 

 

 

 

The Color Red

A lot that I need to speak upon. Elections. Jesus’ worth. The picture of Jesus as a lion in Narnia and my take on wanting to live with all my heart!

The color red

Red lights guide me some would

Claim, swing states in the balance, heart

In defiance to any kind of party for change,

Trusting leaders now in front of me,

Counsel says ‘come to me, come and follow me’

Young I’ve been up on the beach with a breach in

Me, have I built something that will get swept away?

Safety, safety! Calls to me, says, ‘stay normal, stay safe’

Adventure, chances, and risk I say—to to many years of

Waiting, waiting for those chances to come back to me—

Red eyes keep me going now, up late searching always

For the deeper meaning—world, see world is in transition

And I got one single ambition—to live, to love, to be free

Inside all the scariest places—fear, you see was just glorified

Yesterday, just for one day! But now the mask of safety comes

Off—He is good, but He is not safe says the lion and asks me

Will you sit in fear, will you live in trembling—risk, no one wants

That and suffering, suffering from chances taken—who wants to

Live with that—now, now be the time to live without regrets

To trust the kings in His hands, to comprehend with all in you that

Trusting this kind of tension is the only non fiction, the only true

Way to waste away—waste away at a life that is worthy, a life

Well done—for the color red of blood it stamps a stop sign upon

My sin, it stops me from taking it for granite—grace, grace is made

For us to take chances but to not trample upon the King Himself

Who bled the color red to have us

Resurrection

Up late editing, thinking of the impact of Christ upon youth in America, and facing my own lack of vision for that which is coming, and that is, Christ Himself.

 

Now fireworks are going off inside of me

Red eyes all around me, starting to despise the sunrise

Up late tonight, teenage wasteland no longer a place to

Think of over and over again, rather the wasteland is the

Place and pace of redemption, now the academy of adolescence

Sitting beneath me now sits with these thoughts of mine, now

I am back upon the shoreline, relying upon that which has made

Its testimony inside of me, now love sits in this chest of mine,

And carves out some new time, red eyes from all the redacting,

Now passion is reacting within me, up nightly waiting heavily for

Morning, now feeling the mourning within, want night to be over

To get ready for a soon makeover of planet earth, when red eyes

In me will be wiped away, tears will fall, no more ender to save us

All, no more fallen lyrics about man’s fallen vibrations, now quiet

Desperation keeps me pacing, something in me is craving that which

Is called resurrection, for to long been hopped up on the wrong medicine

Asking for sleep, asking for peace, when nothing of this world puts me

At ease, not even Orange Towns balmy breeze, remorse from the divorce

Of flesh and spirit, now He says listen and hear it: this is truth, this is living

Proof, stones rolled away, a new day coming anyway, feeding that which

Wants to be fed, hungry for that which is called proof, now I see clearly

In the midst of waiting so eagerly, resurrection is already living inside

Of me, that power to rise, that power to fall, all is inside these bones

Of mine, now one last time I draw near with red eyes, please Lord, resurrect

Me again to live like you again, let me live for that which causes me to

Really live, you dying, you now rising, like this sunrise I am waiting for,

Like this hunger within, morning come, night be over, Son come up,

Spread upon these bloody nights we call living, rise above that which

We cannot conquer, live inside of us, but really rise above us..

Red Eyes

Love, His love is that which satisfied, nothing else will.

 

All my life been searching for that deep down satisfaction

Now I am lacking and missing in action, love has slipped from

Me, love has moved away from me, now the sky opens up pleasantly,

And draws near to me, hearts all around open up to me, now I can

Barely see, red eyes tonight, Persian queen tuck me in, make me clean,

Turbulence you lived in, turbulence you stayed in, out the door it became

Fall to blame, winter to never change, balmy breeze to put you at ease,

Orange town on fire now, down town a look to tell all, see safety is what

I want, but love is what you have, nothing now tastes the same, not that

Little bit of fame that I have to my own name, now all I want is for things

To never change, now I feel like I need to rearrange this time of mine,

And change my mind to be a man now, to grow up now, and give in now

To that which should overtake my choices, volition kicking, premonition

Down the freeway, just a backseat chaser listening to those in front now

To afraid to drive down this narrow road, unsure as always of that which

Sits inside of me, doubting that power so easily, red eyes tonight trying

To get it right, up late for all the wrong reasons, notebooks full of lies,

Continuing to pile up, now Lord keep me screwed up, fix up now that which

Is needed, new revolutions per minute down this freeway drive, the

Summer sense changing now, all my expectations lifted now, just waiting

For change, but now Love is all that remains, time no more needed to be

Wasting away, time now for me to live and say yes to you today